Modes

It's so hard for me to get back into the posting mode when I have been distracted. I don't even know if I can post. I would love to post. There has been a lot that has happened that I would like to discuss. But there are blocks. What I mean by blocks are there are things that bother me to the point where I can't express my self. My husband is one of those blocks. I don't like him anywhere near me when I post. (His vibrations are disruptive and negative.) I don't want him anywhere near this world. And he usually rudely interrupts me because the only one that matters in this world is him! And it's only his thoughts and feelings that should get attention. The hell with everyone else!

Let me try again to explain this whole thing. I get into modes and anything that isn't related to the mode can cause a block in my thought patterns. I have a writing mode, an expressing feelings mode, a being a mom mode, a dealing with my husband mode, a going out into public mode, deal with relatives mode, write in my blog mode.......and when any of these these modes have to cross my brain screams "HALT". Sometimes I can handle the mode shift or interruptions but if there are to many or it's to great I get very agitating and like I said the brain screams halt. I have to stop what I am doing and regroup or just get away

Mind Pause.

Back. My son Billy(the one with A.S.)has the same issue with modes. He was suppose to go over to his friends house yesterday for the kids birthday. His friend also has Aspergers(but Mother and Stepdad don't) and there was all sorts of mode changes. First he was sleeping over, then he couldn't because the kids dad (not the step dad) insisted on the kid sleeping over to his place for the boys birthday so Billy could only stay until 4:00 and not sleepover, then the dad decided he didn't want the kid to come over so Billy could then sleepover, then the kids mom decided they were going to the store (to do something I think pick up a birthday gift for the kid) and they would pick up Billys overnight bag on the way and then she decided not to do that....... eventually I got a call from Billy, he wanted to come home for the night. To much mode shifting I don't blame him.

Distracted mind. Cause - insensitive arrogant husband......I am to irritated to finish telling you what happened. I have to pause and regroup.

NT's don't get it. They say we don't get the social cues thing. Is that really it? Or is just our brain process things in such a different way that we don't function like the NT's do. And when the clueless selfish NT's figure out an A.S. person doesn't get or like the way they behave and there is a clash between the Aspie and the NT, the NT's over bloated ego gets offended and they blame the A.S. person for the dysfunctional encounter. "It's not us, it's you!" "You have a problem, YOU don't know how to behave properly!" "YOU don't understand social cues"!

Really. You know I see Aspies getting along fine with each other.

And boy do NT's get offended when they get called a NT! Why. Were labeled Asperger we accept it. All NT means is Nerotypical. What's the big deal? What, your big fat ego can't handle it? Too bad get use to getting labeled. We have.

You know what kills me!? Once again this is not what I intended to talk about. This happens frequently.

Well I can avoid it no longer. I have to switch modes and become a mom again.
Bye