Planet Hell

I want to mention one thing before I go into a rant again. It came to my attention that I am mostly writting negative stuff and someone might think, Hmmm is she alway so misserable? Well no I am not, but usually the only thing that gets me writing is upsetting events. Boy when I get mad I can communicate, very well!!! But I don't like to get mad because it effects me so deeply and it takes days to recover. I never use to get so mad so easy, but year after year after year of abuse I guess has taken it's toll. And it's not just abuse from family members but abuse from the humans of this earth. From neighbors, doctors, strangers, school staff, our governments, local, state and federal, from Social Service people the snobby cashier, and the list goes on and on and on. I just can't stand how people are just so cruel to one another.

Do I believe in God? Yes I do! And he is in tears over the state of this planet! Why did I mention God all of a sudden? Because I know someone somewhere is going to try to mentions going to God for help. I seen a bunch of Aspie sites that refer to God to help them get through their difficult times, to help them cope with being Asperger. I am already there I have had a strong deep relationship with Father for a long time. Doesn't mean I like the puny little human souls on this planet any better and It I won't give them any of my understanding and compassion anymore. I do realize that there are good souls on this scum planet, I live with three and I have met a few. I also see kind souls getting taken advantage of everyday. But the majority are filth. No belief in God, no kindness in there souls, pigs no decency. I can't talk about this right now because my husband is back. I'll come back later and finish what I was talking about.

Okay I am back a day later. I am not going to carry on to much because I have another post I want to do and I have a time limit. I do want to explain what started this rant though. Lets see where to start. My husband has a bad back. Disc 4 and 5 are herniated, this condition was caused by his work (he worked in a lumber yard) constant heavy lifting for about six years. Well he got to the point were he was in agony. He could barely walk. So he went to his doctor, his doctor put a 20lb weight restriction on him and no prolonged standing. They did MRI's and it showed the obvious, two of his disc are messed up. His boss got wind of this and immediately laid him of telling him that his insurance company advised him not t0 have my him work there at this time because of this back injury. So now my husband is trying to get a comp. case going. BUT, interestingly is lame doctor who diagnosed my husband put in my husbands records that this back injury was NOT work related. Even though he knows it is. Why would he do that you say? Because this doctor is part of the Tri county medicine group of Steuben county! and guess who is on the board of directors for Tri county! Oh you guess it! Bills Boss!!! So if you have a brain cell or two that functions you can see what just happened. The greedy boss went to the puppet doctor and told him he better play along OR ELSE!

That's what sent me into orbit!!! That's what started this rant!! But I have to move forward and I will leave this behind me and let my husband handle it or at least I'll try.