The Window is Open

Well this post I think I will focus on something a little different. My Kids! I love them so much! They are the kindest, most understand souls! But they are not without problems of there own. Billy is my oldest he is 15 and he is the one with Aspergers. Caleb is 11(going on 30) and has ADHD. Jennifer is 7 without any issues at all. She is a complete 100% NT! And Bill my husband is a NT and well.....he is just something else. It makes for a very interesting house hold. Caleb by far is the most liveliest. He is funny! But he has the most anger issues. Caleb's tantrums as a child were not throwing himself the the floor and kicking and screaming, it was throwing him- self down the stairs and kick and screaming. I kid you not! He punched walls, windows, teachers.......but we found a lot of his anger issues were fueled by Blue #1. So once we removed that from his diet he calmed down tremendously. He is still a power house but in a more positive way. Billy is great I love his logic, his cooperativeness, he's wonderful, he's a genius at math and architecture. It's hard for him being A.S. with such an spirited brother. I try to help Billy as much as I can and I do not tolerate any mean violent behavior between any of them!!! Jennifer is amazing! Smart, very smart. Not one hint of a learning disability. People love Jennifer. But as much as I would love to say they are perfect they are not. Jenny has her issue too. Even being a NT.

Bill. He is getting his own paragraph. He is definitely an NT. He can be nice and helpful one moment and cold and unsympathetic the next. He has a real hard time accepting the fact that I have Asperger. He acts like a dork when it comes to A.S. issues with my son even though I continually explain what is going on with Billy. Unless he is drinking he is not a nice person. I hate being around him when he is straight. He harps on all of us, picks on Caleb and me mostly. But Caleb has his ways of getting him back. He knows how to push bills buttons! I try to tell Bill how to handle him and he don't listen. I don't know I just seem to click with the kids and he don't.

Now this is where I get stuck. I want to tell you more but can't. I can't get it out. Maybe because there is to much to choose from. It's like I was on this path doing fine and then all of a sudden there are 5 different paths I could take and I can't figure out which one to go down. I just stand there frozen. That's when the window closes.